This blog is part of a wonderful story. The story began in 2004 or 2005 (I really can’t remember the exact year), at a time when I hadn’t yet the slightest idea what blogs are. It was the pre-Facebook era, and although my friends and I have been using email to exchange jokes and funny stories, that was all I was familiar with about the world wide web at that time. In my line of work, print (on paper) was everything.
Anyway, there was one special Sunday in church back in 2004/2005 when we had Dr. George Hill, founder of Victory Churches International, as guest speaker. He delivered what to me was a very powerful and inspiring sermon about reawakening one’s dreams and visions. There comes a point in our lives when we often find it easier to forget about everything we’ve ever hoped for or dreamed about. After years and years of seemingly hopeless pursuit of our dreams, with nothing to show for it, the natural tendency is to abandon our passions and heart’s desires and instead, make ourselves busy with the regular and the mundane, in the comfort and safety of “normalcy”. God-given visions lay dormant in our consciousness as we push them aside in favor of what is more acceptable to people around us. In other words, we trade our dreams and visions for “more realistic,” “more achievable” goals.
I must have been crying the entire time Dr. George was speaking. Because I had this crazy feeling that the message was meant for me. Weird. There were hundreds of people in church with me but I felt like God was speaking to me alone. Hello, attention: Carol. Knock, knock. This. Message. Is. For. YOU.
I felt my heart “burning” —you know that sensation described by Jesus’ disciples when they met Him after His resurrection without recognizing Him, and one of them said, “Didn’t our hearts burn within us as He talked with us” —that kind of feeling.
Dr. George ended his powerful message with a powerful prayer (I guess everything Dr. George does is powerful). He asked God to re-ignite our dreams and visions once again, to restore the hope and faith that everything is possible. As the audience kept their eyes closed while he was praying, I “saw” something in my spirit. God impressed upon me a picture of what looked like a page of a book, or what I thought to be a book. It was titled “People of Destiny” and on its pages were true stories told by real people of God’s amazing moves in their lives. Miracles upon miracles. Testimonies upon testimonies. That page, especially the fonts and the layout, had been imprinted on my mind from that day onward. I could never forget it. I could not “unsee” what I’ve seen.
“Carrying” the vision
The excitement I felt was just overwhelming. In order for this to become reality, this could only mean one of these things: One, a Christian publisher could hire me to write that book. Two, a rich Christian could help me finance the publication of that book (at that time, I was temporarily unemployed). Three, my church could publish my book. Four, I could actually get rich enough to publish my own book (years later, I did publish my own book, but not this one).
The mind-boggling question for me then was how I could possibly manage a worldwide circulation and distribution of that book. At that time, it had been clear to me that the “book” has to be read by people from outside my country. Don’t ask me how I knew, I just did. Back then, the extent of the influence that any writer could ever hope to achieve is determined (or limited) by the extent of the publication’s circulation and distribution.
I remember telling some friends in church about it. “I’m going to write a book!” I would gush about my “vision”. But I soon realized that people in general cannot possibly relate to the personal dreams and passions of another, unless they see their own dreams in it. That was probably the point when I decided to shut up about it and keep the “vision” to myself.
Years passed, 14 years to be exact, when the busyness, the rat race, the schedules, dominated my life and prevented me from revisiting my so-called “dream”. But in between workdays and occasional holidays, I’ve been blogging on and off. I used to have a blogspot blog but finally settled on wordpress. This blog has already gone through several changes of names and titles, and I have played around with different themes of varying layouts, fonts, and colors.
It wasn’t a book after all
I think it was probably three years ago when I began writing testimonies on this blog. I realized that the online world in general is filled with the opinions and reflections of people who either hate God or believe the lies peddled by influential people who secretly hate God. Christians on the web, meanwhile, are generally more concerned about theological points of contention and are basically writing only with other Christians in mind. I figured there must be a space somewhere in the worldwide web where TRUTH is displayed loud and clear, not through religious preaching, but through the stories of people who have encountered Him.
After several more changes to the blog title, I finally settled on “People of Destiny” and somehow immediately felt a sense of peace about it. When I stepped back to see the resulting blog page, I just froze. It was the exact same thing I’ve seen in that vision years before—fonts, colors, and all. I had seen this blog in my vision. It wasn’t a book after all. In my “pre-internet” perspective, I had thought that it could never be anything other than a book. All this time, I had thought I had completely abandoned that vision. And all this time, God had been guiding me as I was actually doing it all along without me knowing. Just then, everything made sense. It was certainly a wonderful surprise.
When I stepped back to see the resulting blog page, I just froze. It was the exact same thing I’ve seen in that vision years before—fonts, colors, and all. I had seen this blog in my vision. It wasn’t a book after all.
However, I have no illusions about this blog becoming more than what it was meant to be. I write for that one person—yes, even just ONE person from outside of my country—whose eyes will be opened to the awesome truth of Who God really is and how knowing Him would make a big difference in their life. That would certainly make everything worth it.